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 i got off strattera it's like 4th day and i feel my body temperature approach normal levels which is. oh my fucking god did that SUCK ASS. i had to blow dry the sweat from my hair upon coming home... from a simple walk.....IN JANUARY. and the sweat stains drove me insane and not even appreciating a warm day or a sunbeam or a hot bath bc i was constantly warm anyway. my brain seems ok too not to jinx. i dont feel stupid like i did when i didnt take the meds for 3 days last time. i think i was just in a flashback then, and like unbalanced mentally. rn im more stable and i feel fine. i think if i do my cptsd recovery work and maybe get into like yoga i can get into a better state of my nervous system and won't feel despaired about it. cuz taking these meds every day feels wrong. i don't even know if i truly have adhd even. and i need to reconnect w my unmedicated self. bc i LOVE HER i love my sober self in general lol<3

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 i can't wait for spring. also i need to have friends in my hometown. to hang with. and a job.........gahhhhhh

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 also i know it's like february and also i hardly socialize and do what a human must do to feel good but like. i feel so ugly and pasty and too fat and weak... and my knees are cracking. i want to be strong and alive and have fun... and feel pretty

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 i lived on slightly more than min wage per month in december and january and it's. rly rly hard and makes life so boring too and ummmm well. hm idk. i like depending less on my parents i suppose. i just wish i had a job so i could have a different income than begging money of them.

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 i finally made one of the sleeves for my sweater!!!! (also means i figured out how to make it so i can make the second sleeve without having to think and redo) but i did make some sort of mistake in the cuff it's no biggie but im NOT doing the same for my second sleeve. or redoing. im just going to roll w it lol. now i need to make the other sleeve, attach the sleeves to the body and sew it all together, and knit a collar. hell yeah