Sunday, 18 May 2025

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Sunday, 18 May 2025 10:06 pm
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 helloooo im feeling so chatty so i might rant on here lol. i think i could get away without posting lately bc i had my gay group chat 4 the last yr but it's fizzling out... Rip

the only other girl in it left and the guys pretty much ignore my blog like rants there and r in general... so emotionally stunted im Sorryyyy i rly thought this male lameness disease doesn't apply to the gays and im sure it's true to an extent but theyre also all barely 22 and are chronically online and therefore r also scared to meet up (well esp the one i was the most obsessed w and thought we will be besties 4ever sigh)

Which is bizarre to me bc i am always down to meet up w someone i met online and blogged/ranted at bc i already know they rnt judging me which is the scariest part of meeting a person irl 4 ME. i think sadly there's some truth to the whole idea of - - - If u meet someone online and they seem to Live On The Internet and have barely any irl social life, there may be well a reason why, like maybe theyre not that well adjusted irl. I say that w love, and as someone who can be described by that sentence as well and ofc this isn't an axiom justa thoughttt.

anyway i just wanna be able to tell someone the stupid minutiae stuff from my everyday life rn so the void of blogging will have to do whats up

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Sunday, 18 May 2025 10:36 pm
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sometimes i consider using a diff place to blog, like even being more open abt my lyfe on places like instagram (yeah lame) but i feel like i have become such a controversial person that no social/friend/online group i should expose to the barely filtered thoughts i have... like i cannot imagine posting my thoughts where my irl people can see them!

it's also this modern culture where u can't say anything outside of the status quo without immediately getting attacked by comments and inquiries on your ProBlemAtiC oPinioNs... ..... make it stop!! and living thru war adds to the heat of the discussions, some of my opinions would prob upset a foreign person and some a local person. i think it's not even me being so crazi, it's just how tense the online and offline society feels... there's obv upsides to this current culture but man. it feels like a cage... what happened to being fucking silly on the internet

plus the online culture/soc medias are also very against anonymity lately, like so many ppl go by their legal name as their insta handle now and insta is just a linkedin/"oh look how employable i am" thing. Ew.

i had a nonsensical insta handle for as long as i can remember and a month or so ago i caved in and changed it to my legal name (barf) it was not just bc of the pressure but also bc i never liked that prev handle. rn my insta is deactivated and i wanna reactivate it just to change my name to a new nonsensical handle i thought of today... lol as if that would make the place feel any more friendly. Well at least my acc wouldnt come up to those googling my fackin legal name!! esp since im applying 4 jobs now shhh (🧿)

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Sunday, 18 May 2025 10:52 pm
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 but also honestly i can live without voicing my Opinions but i am also v used to gossiping abt my irl ppl, or like local celebs im obsessed with (and there's a 100 percent change i am within two handshakes of knowing them like i just want to fangirl in privacy!!) or describing my hangout w my irl ppl and i just can't do it in the open field of social media with irls there... maybe someday idk.

i know ppl who do it and there arent many of those tbh like u gotta be a special kind of person imo... im too private 4 that! and the rest of humanity either has a blog like me or is a normie who doesn't need to talk abt their lyfe online ahah

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Sunday, 18 May 2025 10:56 pm
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 anyway no gossip ahead im just chilling oiling my scalp and eating this thing i baked out of oats, tahini, dates, cotttage cheese, olive oil and honey and it turned out more a bread than a cake but it's good with some butter and honey on top :) i <3when chaotic baking is an edible success

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Sunday, 18 May 2025 11:01 pm
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 maybe i do miss tumblr like there's more ppl there but i feel sorta incompatible with the athmosphere of it now but idk bleh. and i still hate likes... if i were to come back i wld prob make a new blog... that's always fun tho right?

i was looking at this one girl's blog on there and going thru it to listen to all the music she posted and it's sooo good and fresh to my ears this is one of the best tumblr experiences imo to be able to get new music(or other media,literature) recs from someone's actual taste not bc the algorithm recommended x band to u!! i love itttt, and when my actual friends give me music recs ofc <3<3<3

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