internet addiction
Tuesday, 19 November 2024 09:31 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
softsoftthe internet addiction talk is always about social media addiction and i find it hard to relate or find useful information for my case cuz rn i hardly go on social media and when i do it's for a couple minutes to check what everyone is doing etc. i also quit gaming and watching short videos. it all DID take effort and multuple attempts! but i feel like i am still failing bc now i just use the internet how i did in 2012-2015 (sans tumblr) as in - i don't really use my smartphone and its' apps to do nothing of use (my smartphone being busted does help lol) but instead im stuck on my LAPTOP browsing internet for hours every dayyyy. it's not so much social media (i guess some reddit but fortunately i don't rly latch to it the way ppl report) as it is just random ass SITES and GOOGLING and falling into rabbit holes!!!
No one rly talks abt it (except for my fav ladies from the adhd women subreddit lmao they get it like no one else) like, my "addiction" is to the endless scrolling possibilities internet provides, and as someone w adhd i always have random thoughts and questions popping in my head and google allows me to satiate this curiosity immediately (and then i want to dig deeper and deeper and boom, a rabbit hole). I can entertain myself online just as fine without an app with an algorithm basically... and it's so draining feels like im just wasting my life
i think sometimes the way my brain digs into research is good when it's something useful for me. other times i am just reading reviews to a dress i never intend to buy or reading some rando's obituary or something, like make it stop omfg. i think i'm going to stop myself from googling so much, sounds so silly but whatev. i used to have the same thing w music popping into my head and over time i quit trying to listen to that song immediately and it felt much better so maybe this will work too.
also when i tried not using my laptop firstly i immediately went back to my phone lol secondly i would pick up the magazine i had and it was depressing me bc it was about ww2, but then i remembered abt a book i wanted to finish that's _a light read_ but not sad. also obv still need more magazines and physical music and maybe movies (i still need to quit rewatching the same cartoons over and over) to not just sit in silence inside my lonely apartment. i've got to count in the factor of how lonely and eventless my life is and not expect too much out of myself basically. plus im not going to blame myself for craving the escapism of being online after listening to shelling all day long etc.
No one rly talks abt it (except for my fav ladies from the adhd women subreddit lmao they get it like no one else) like, my "addiction" is to the endless scrolling possibilities internet provides, and as someone w adhd i always have random thoughts and questions popping in my head and google allows me to satiate this curiosity immediately (and then i want to dig deeper and deeper and boom, a rabbit hole). I can entertain myself online just as fine without an app with an algorithm basically... and it's so draining feels like im just wasting my life
i think sometimes the way my brain digs into research is good when it's something useful for me. other times i am just reading reviews to a dress i never intend to buy or reading some rando's obituary or something, like make it stop omfg. i think i'm going to stop myself from googling so much, sounds so silly but whatev. i used to have the same thing w music popping into my head and over time i quit trying to listen to that song immediately and it felt much better so maybe this will work too.
also when i tried not using my laptop firstly i immediately went back to my phone lol secondly i would pick up the magazine i had and it was depressing me bc it was about ww2, but then i remembered abt a book i wanted to finish that's _a light read_ but not sad. also obv still need more magazines and physical music and maybe movies (i still need to quit rewatching the same cartoons over and over) to not just sit in silence inside my lonely apartment. i've got to count in the factor of how lonely and eventless my life is and not expect too much out of myself basically. plus im not going to blame myself for craving the escapism of being online after listening to shelling all day long etc.
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Date: Wednesday, 20 November 2024 05:15 am (UTC)lately ive been trying to use phone/computer mostly for writing and communicating rather than consuming and it feels healthier!
we Do need and deserve some escapism though!!
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Date: Wednesday, 20 November 2024 09:55 pm (UTC)